It's not 'good-bye', just 'see you later'
I find myself uncharacteristically short on words. I mean, hell, I can blather on about sunglasses, and yet I can't find the ability to talk about my move, my friends, and all that transitioning shit that goes with? Go figure.
I move today. Which, by itself, isn't remarkable. It's a move that I need to make, and some could argue one that I've needed to make for a long time. Eh, whatever. Regardless, though, what makes this move emotionally resonant is that everyone else I know seems to be moving, too. While my current roommates are staying put, they're nonetheless finding ways to make themselves increasingly scarce. Maybe it's their studies or jobs, I can't say. But I can say that I'm seeing far less of them now then I had been in the past.
And already, one friend is in LA. He's been there for a couple of months now. And then jsut this week, two friends went there, too. And later today, two more friends will be heading back to their homes back East. And then - and then! - next week, my co-worker will be leaving. A brief word about my co-worker - she makes my job bearable. And so, once she's gone... My label-making exploits may yet drive me crazy. And you thought that they had already done just that.
My friends and I were lucky just after college in that we didn't have to say good-bye. It seems to be the case that most friends all scatter to the wind, like so many leaves on a fall day. And while we had one friend go to Prague, and another to New York City (albeit temporarily, before she returned to Chicago), the general feeling was that we were all still together. I can't count the meals that were shared between us while in school, nor the nights spent together watchign tv, or movies, or doing whatever it was that we did back in school. There isn't a group of people that can make me laugh so readily, I'll tell you what.
So it was really great to still be together, hanging out, and carrying on much as we did while in school. Despite the fact that we all got jobs and apartments and began acting like young adults, rather than students, I mean, we could still hold onto that intellectual freedom that comes with being a student. But now, we're all leaving, in our own ways. Lots of transitions for us all, and for the most part, I doubt that we'll ever come together as a big group again.
With everyone leaving Chicago, I'm left to consider that I'm still going to be in the city, albeit some 75 blocks north of where I am now. Do I feel left behind? As everyone moves on with their lives, I'm remaining in Chicago, at the same job I've had for a year now. The same crap job, I might add. But no, this feels right, to move now.
And sure enough, I'm moving. Good luck, me, good luck.
xoxo,
ddm
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I find myself uncharacteristically short on words. I mean, hell, I can blather on about sunglasses, and yet I can't find the ability to talk about my move, my friends, and all that transitioning shit that goes with? Go figure.
I move today. Which, by itself, isn't remarkable. It's a move that I need to make, and some could argue one that I've needed to make for a long time. Eh, whatever. Regardless, though, what makes this move emotionally resonant is that everyone else I know seems to be moving, too. While my current roommates are staying put, they're nonetheless finding ways to make themselves increasingly scarce. Maybe it's their studies or jobs, I can't say. But I can say that I'm seeing far less of them now then I had been in the past.
And already, one friend is in LA. He's been there for a couple of months now. And then jsut this week, two friends went there, too. And later today, two more friends will be heading back to their homes back East. And then - and then! - next week, my co-worker will be leaving. A brief word about my co-worker - she makes my job bearable. And so, once she's gone... My label-making exploits may yet drive me crazy. And you thought that they had already done just that.
My friends and I were lucky just after college in that we didn't have to say good-bye. It seems to be the case that most friends all scatter to the wind, like so many leaves on a fall day. And while we had one friend go to Prague, and another to New York City (albeit temporarily, before she returned to Chicago), the general feeling was that we were all still together. I can't count the meals that were shared between us while in school, nor the nights spent together watchign tv, or movies, or doing whatever it was that we did back in school. There isn't a group of people that can make me laugh so readily, I'll tell you what.
So it was really great to still be together, hanging out, and carrying on much as we did while in school. Despite the fact that we all got jobs and apartments and began acting like young adults, rather than students, I mean, we could still hold onto that intellectual freedom that comes with being a student. But now, we're all leaving, in our own ways. Lots of transitions for us all, and for the most part, I doubt that we'll ever come together as a big group again.
With everyone leaving Chicago, I'm left to consider that I'm still going to be in the city, albeit some 75 blocks north of where I am now. Do I feel left behind? As everyone moves on with their lives, I'm remaining in Chicago, at the same job I've had for a year now. The same crap job, I might add. But no, this feels right, to move now.
And sure enough, I'm moving. Good luck, me, good luck.
xoxo,
ddm
email me
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